Writing? Acting? Both?

I'm still debating about the whole writing/acting thing. I want to try my hand at acting, and I know I'll never give up writing (NaNoWriMo and ScriptFrenzy are too fun!), but I'm wondering which I should do professionally.

They're both difficult, of course. I've got to have some experience first, and I'm coming up short for both writing and acting. It's irritating at times and then I try to figure out what I need to do to get a step further into either field.

Today I'm leaning more toward writing. I've got an idea that I'm using as I build a dollhouse with my sister (it's going to be the location of the story), and it's somewhat fleshed out (more than my fairytale re-telling at the moment), but...I haven't worked on it in a while.

I get frustrated often because I don't think I'm a procrastinator, but I have a bad habit of longing for something and never putting in the real work to get there. Why do I do that?!?!?!

So I try to pull out Violet's Monster: Volume I (Actually thought about it the other day and rehashed some of the plot in my mind and it stood up to a somewhat severe critique) and brush it off and work on it and...

I think I haven't found my voice yet, and that's what's bothering me. The pages are stale, like I'm just writing an account of what happened, not actually breathing into the story to make it come alive. I'm the bare bones account written down by the police, not the story written by the newspaperman that brings tears to everyone's eyes.

But how can I find my voice unless I write?

Therein lies my problem. I ask too many questions and when I can't satisfy myself with the answers, I just...sit here and get annoyed.

I just need to get in there and fiddle around with my stories and figure out what I'm really trying to say, like Lloyd Alexander says:

"All that writers can do is keep trying to say what is deepest in their hearts."