Very Strange Day

I've had a very strange day and I'm not sure how I feel about it. I won't have time to process until next week when I'm alone at work, and...

1. I had several very strange dreams last night, one of which had my brother attempting to make me take these little white pills that swelled and closed off my throat so I couldn't breathe, and I felt like I was dying but he had to do it for some reason (to scare off someone?)...I felt really sad, not angry, but overwhelmingly sad. I went to bed last night not breathing well (I'm a bit overweight and my asthma's returned) so I'm pretty sure that's where the white pills (which looked remarkably like my melatonin pills) came from. But my brother?! I've had two dreams where he's killed me. Not sure what to make of that.

Of course, there was also ridiculous stuff in the continuing dream, like having to go to the public restroom to use a printer to print off something for work, and then jumping in a pool to play with a dolphin.

For the record, I ate Cheddar Sour Cream chips, some chocolate covered graham crackers, and drank a glass of Sierra Mist Cranberry Splash a little bit before I went to bed.

So I woke up feeling very sad this morning, remembering the dream.

2. Then, we wait on the puppies to show up (they DID show up this year), but when they did, poop and pee were everywhere, and the one female was in heat so...it got a little awkward. Not the best organized event. :/ Pets, Inc. was great though and I already sent them a Thank You card. :)

So that was weird and strangely mixed (laughter and poo?) and then...

3. My boss tells me someone isn't happy that I'm a pseudo-"student worker" so my boss and her boss pushed for me to at least for the moment become permanent part-time (with hopeful full-time status eventually). This means I'll have fewer hours (just Tues-Fri), but I get vacation time, sick days, holiday pay, and a raise. So that's nice. But it also means I finally have to sign paperwork.

And while I don't mind going off alcohol for a few years...it was nice going out for my brother's 21st birthday. I guess God held up long enough on this blessing so I could enjoy that one.

I don't know. I am grateful that my boss fights so hard for me, and I'm grateful I will get 3 day weekends now (which I have desperately needed). I'm also very, very, very grateful for pay when I'm sick or on holiday, and I'm happy to get vacation time, since my family wants to take a week and drive to Kansas in the summer.

But something in the back of my head is flipping a warning switch and I guess I'm being cautious in case something doesn't turn out or...I don't know.

I just don't know how I feel today. And that bothers me.