So I didn't mean to complain yesterday. I think this situation will turn out for the best, although I'm horribly hurt that the new woman in accounting decided to stick her nose in my business and protest my working here. Will I make new enemies every year?! This makes no. 3, although I have made peace with one of my nemeses. Thank goodness. So that's 1 down, 2 to go. Hopefully my more professional wardrobe and continued smiles and sugary flattering will end the other two. ;) Sheesh. It's so ridiculous.
Anyway...I think what I was feeling yesterday was that my last vestiges of childhood have been ripped away in one day. I had a student worker job and was still auditing class and hanging out with friends on campus and...but now I have a 'real job' and I need to be professional and be there early/on time and dress nicely and actually work on my being so socially awkward and introverted so that people won't think I'm a crazy person.
(not that I'm going to change who I am, but reading Tim Gunn's "Gunn's Golden Rules" has helped me see that in a professional environment, I need to behave professionally, and trailing off after half a sentence and not making eye contact is not very professional)
And that's not really what I wanted to say but I can't really say what I want to say. So for now, I'm going to leave it at that.
I don't really know what's next. I was doing alright in limbo, between things. I don't know exactly what my new expectations are, and I have to read and sign the rulebook now and...I'm really, really sad about having to give up the choice to drink alcohol.
Stu said, "But you don't even drink!" Which isn't the least bit true. I am insanely picky about the alcohol I do drink, but I like the stuff I like AND what's more important, I like having the option to drink.
Which is very silly of me and I can put up with no alcohol for the next few years while Stu goes to grad school. We can't have alcohol in the apartments anyway.
(Now that is some childISH thinking which I need to rid myself of - the sadness of losing something I don't even do on a regular basis to gain a greater job!)
congratulations on the promotion!! that's wonderful that your boss fought to keep you. right now I'm in the middle of looking for a job, and it feels like i am mostly unwanted anywhere (i hate looking for jobs, haha), so it's great that you are in a position where people want you. i hope things go over ok with the new woman in accounting, and with your new professionalism. :) miss you!
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