SIGH. Sometimes, I just wish I was someone else. A better, more productive, amazing housekeeper who also had a great, well-paying job who didn't get hurt when people tell her that they're glad there's only one of her. [Thankfully, that was not my husband, who is, in fact, my hero.]
But enough negativity - apparently I dwell too much on that and I need to focus on more positive aspects of my life, in spite of the fact that I can't help how many negative things have happened to me, and in spite of the fact that I was, until a few days ago, doing quite well being optimistic.
I've been drawing, as you've noticed if you've been reading, for the past few days. Unfortunately...I think today is the last day for a while. Until the end of next month. :P But I did manage to get some good drawings out to add to my portfolio and perhaps someday I will be able to draw the whole month.
Today was interesting...if only because of my lack of getting paid. I have a direct deposit, which is so nice, but my money didn't appear today and we are down to $0.20. Really. So I called later that morning and asked if I had turned in all my timesheets, because sometimes I turn them in a day after when I don't work the day they're due or whatever. The person on the phone merely replied, "Oh, I just didn't enter your time. That's why you aren't getting paid today." So, then she proceeded to say she could pay me tomorrow, but I honestly told her we needed groceries tonight. So, after some huffing, she agreed to give me the check. We discussed this at 9 a.m. and I thought I'd have it by lunch so we could deposit it. NOT! The check did not materialize until 3 and by the time Stu got to the bank, we could deposit it but it wouldn't technically be "in" my account until tomorrow. Thankfully, a friend was able to purchase dinner for us and another friend came to pick us up since we have no gas in the car, and we played basketball.
Today was a very rough day. And if someone doesn't get off my back about being a horrible person, terrible housekeeper, and an argumentative bitch, I'm going to have to escape for a weekend and go camping. Or something. I am extremely sensitive and yes, I should be working on that, and yes, I have been, but it hurts to know what people think of you when it's that bad. I'm hurt. And apparently all I can do is fuss about it. So then it's true, I'm just an argumentative and fussy bitch.
Today sucked, actually.
Songs for the day:
So What? by Pink
My Life Would Suck Without You by Kelly Clarkson
I love you all. And I'm sorry about this post. I needed to vent and there's not really anyone else around at the moment. I humbly apologize if you've read this far...and I'm sorry for swearing. :/ I try not to do that, too...
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