Random Thoughts

I want to create something...story ideas swirl in my head, and then my hand itches to hold paintbrushes or colored pencils, to draw someone into existence...I want to write poetry and then again, I yearn to work on my dollhouse.

Unfocused creativity is the bane of my existence.

However, since I am at work, my choices are limited. I have pen and paper, Word, & embroidery at my disposal. I guess I'll try drawing first.

I've been learning how to play Magic and I have found that I really enjoy it. I'm not great at strategy but I like to try. I'm also not good at losing so even though I won't yell at you, I'll feel stupid and will not want to try again for a while. I am trying to learn, however, that to get better I need to play more, and if I don't understand that it's ok to ask a question.

I'm also getting better in other ways...I think my spirit is healing. I've had a couple dreams that have shown that I am getting better, and even though I haven't gone to church in a while and even though I don't attend chapels (even though I should), I am beginning once again to want to read Scripture. That's more important to me than having missed/attended any number of chapels.

I need to practice music. I will be woefully out of practice by the time weddings start happening. I've got 3 weddings and a church service to get through before the end of school. I like performing but I'd rather it was with people, which is why I like playing at church. I also don't like inconveniencing people which is why we're thinking about getting our own pick-up truck or at least a trailer that we can haul Elizabeth (the harp) around in.

I want a bunny rabbit. I've had bunnies in the past but living in the dorms has required me to go pet-less. (Except for fish, which aren't cuddly, but better than nothing) I am thinking about seeing if there is a bunny adoption place around, although I would love to own a Holland Lop if I can find one for cheap. Small, lop-eared rabbits are my favorite. I would get a dog but we cannot have something that destructive in the house. At least, not in this tiny one. Maybe once we're in the commune *laughs*...or have moved into a larger establishment...:p

Alright...I'll stop blah-blah-blah-ing and go try to draw something. I can tell I'm about to start my monthly visit from Aunt Flo. My middle is constantly in pain and I want to do something creative. Sigh. Let's hope a cyst doesn't arrive.