Who Am I?

I was telling Stu the other day about stuff I loved to do and things I wished I still had the time/money for. One of those things was ballet. When he asked me why I hadn't pursued it, I told him that since my feet are flat and my ankles are turned in, I would have had to undergo major surgery in order to learn toe, which is a punishing art to learn - hours of standing on toes that are blistered and bleeding from the concrete in the shoes (it looks beautiful, but it is only for someone completely dedicated to ballet!).

That got me thinking. There are some things I simply can't continue because of money - art lessons, craft lessons (basketry, scrapbooking, etc.), and so forth.

But then there are those hobbies that could never be 'real' careers - dance, ice skating, even music.

I have mediocre musical talent. I'm grateful for what I have, but having been tested I can say I am completely average in musical ability. I will never excel to a professional or prodigious level. I'm simply not cut out for it. I can muddle along at weddings but I don't believe you'll ever see me as a serious performer. I simply am not that person.

I can't ice skate or dance because of my ankles and my body shape (I'm simply naturally built to be husky. Which I don't mind, really, as I am proud of how strong I am).

But that gets me to thinking...is that God's way of pointing me in the right direction? He let me enjoy all those things and learning all of those things, but they aren't right for a career. I can continue to take lessons and enjoy them (when the money comes) but because of who I am physically, I can't go be a jockey or prima ballerina or the next ice queen.

What I can do, however, is WRITE. I can create ice skaters, ballerinas, jockeys, and detectives, I can write about people who fly planes, deep-sea dive, and find buried treasure, and I can write about people who make it to the big screen or work on a television show.

Writing is an exercise...I can continue to learn and be a better writer by 1. reading (my absolute FAVORITE!) and 2. writing, writing, writing.

All I need is pen and paper, or a computer, a typewriter, or a voice recorder.

I don't need money or a certain body shape/physique to create stories that point to a generous and loving Creator. All I need is practice. Lots and lots and lots of practice, research, and dedication.

I think I can do that.