I've been sick for two weeks now, with a cold and with the usual monthly terror. :/ I'm still not over my cold as it has settled into my lungs and every time I sneeze I run the risk of coating anything in sight with ectoplasm. (Ewwwwwww!)
I've revisited some Office episodes recently and fallen back in love with that show. Even though it isn't really true to life, I feel like those characters are so human, and the writing on that show is brilliant. (I've been watching seasons 5&6)
A lot of my friends as well as myself are going through some rough stuff right now and I think that's why I've gone back to watch some of The Office. Things can get pretty bad around here, especially as the holidays approach.
Also, my brother Morgan would be 21 this year, on November 16. I imagine it'd just be me and him Stateside, celebrating somewhere, maybe with a little Rum and Coke.
Every year his birthday sneaks up on me and takes me by surprise. I think about how old he'd be and what we'd be doing and how he would look. I think that's one reason I have several guy friends that age - I long to know what Morgan could have been.
Don't get me wrong - I'm glad he's in heaven waiting for me. I just...wonder how things would have turned out sometimes.
I think that's why I've been feeling down lately - I'm always sad this time of year and then wonder why and then I remember that this is another year where my little baby brother isn't around to hug, or watch movies with me on our makeshift mattress-couch.
I still miss him.
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