Storyteller

Feeling about the same this morning.

I'm just sort of...existing today. Not that it's a bad thing. My brain probably needs a re-charge. Trying to not stress out about money we don't have/aren't getting. It's also been disheartening seeing Stu be angry with himself for whatever is going wrong at the moment. Encouragement just seems to slip off Stu like water off a duck's back and it frustrates me that I cannot help. But, I do feel hopeful. It looks like they're charging us a ridiculous amount of tax which we shouldn't owe until next year (and probably won't owe since we are going to have an even lower salary than last year) and so the only amount we should have to pay is a little under $200, which we can pay if Stu gets a gig (and he's got two ready to go, just waiting on clients). So please pray that the $200 is the only amount we have to pay now (or that they give us grace and forgive it this time) and that Stu gets some paying gigs.

He needs some encouragement from an outside source, I think. Either getting gigs, or equipment, or just something to let him see that he isn't a failure and that sometimes, life is just hard.

I'm prepared for a hard life. I've had one. But Stu's had one too and he doesn't want to live that way anymore. I'm not really sure what to tell him - sometimes, people just have hard lives. Or, they have hard lives before they have it easy. Either way, it's going to be rough for a while. I think once we pay off the student loans and save enough money to get a new car, we will be doing better.

But that doesn't mean it'll get any easier. It just means hardships will be more bearable. Hopefully.

All that to say...I'm ok with where we are right now. Sure, it's hard to stretch one paycheck and sure, it's aggravating that we can't seem to do anything right, but we'll figure it out and by and by we'll be alright.

In the mean time, I shall write stories and become famous for my wildly inventive tales about a rockstar, a girl and a monster, and an alien family who hire a white trash au pair.