I just found out that my sister is being commissioned to paint. Her artwork is lovely (a tiny resemblance to Georgia O'Keefe's work), and she's spent a lot of time in lessons honing her craft.
Ethan has become a chef, a writer of poetry and short stories, and a guitar player.
My brother, Andrew, (the youngest) is earning money by teaching piano, which he just picked up a year ago. And trust me, he's already amazing.
While I'm really proud of my siblings...it really sucks to be the least talented sibling.
I'm working on a painting right now, and it's embarrassing to see how much I've lost in the last few years. I have lost any small talent I had with it. I can't take ballet or ice-skating or horseback riding, and I'm not even getting harp gigs anymore.
It hurts to see my siblings becoming successful artists while my talent rots.
I feel like I can't do anything any more. I don't have much talent to start with, and that coupled with my already unprocessed emotions and seeing friends do what they've dreamed of...well...I feel like I've wasted my entire life.
oh kaitlin, :( i'm so sorry, it really sucks to see other people's dreams come true and feel like yours are not. i wish i could be there to give you a huge hug and tell you that you yourself are so much more precious than any talent, or anything you can do!!
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